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Respect, respect what is found
Respect should be abound
Respect everything that you leave
I can't believe
I can't believe
Can't believe
And I, I can't believe
I can't believe all the travesty
Surrounding me , I want to flee
I want to flee from everything
In front of me
I can't believe
Can't believe
Never again, trusted in you
Fuck everything that you think I should be
I stand, never again, never again
I can't believe
Can't believe
If ever you had said to me before
That I would live this life
That I am Living now
I guess it's all so strange
To feel the way I do inside
But have so much that I could feel
Some pride for in my life
So why is it that I feel like this
How do I feel?
I've been here before
I've felt this
Retreat to a place,
A place within me
I need this.
Keep it all down,
Bottled inside
It breaks me.
To torment again
And torture me
Like it used to
I try and try to break away
From all the hate I'm feeling
For everyone of you
That's ever Done me wrong.
I need to justify the reasons
For the way I'm living.
I guess I can't 'cause
I don't feel like I deserve it
How do I feel?
I've been here before
I've felt this
Retreat to a place,
a place within me
I need this.
Keep it all down,
Bottled inside
It breaks me.
To torment again
And torture me
Like it used to
So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding I can't take away
All The shame I feel forgive me
How do I feel?
I've been here before
I've felt this
Retreat to a place,
a place within me
I need this.
Keep it all down,
Bottled inside
It breaks me.
To torment again
And torture me
Like it used to
Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles
'Cause my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
'Cause i can't take anymore of this
I wanna come apart
And dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention
Yet I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing isn't feel
Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
the thought is too
Much to conceive
I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface
I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
So where were you
When all this I was going through
You never took the time to ask me
Just what you could do
To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?
I sit locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions
'Cause I sit here locked
inside my head remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere to fast!
All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence get us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way to fast
It's been awhile, since I could
Hold my head high
It's been awhile since I first saw you
It's been a while since I could stand
On my own two feet again
It's been awhile since I could call you
But everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
It's been awhile since I could say
That I wasn't addicted
It's been a while since I could say
I love myself as well
It's been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do
But all that shit seems to disappear
When I'm with you
But everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gona and fucked things up again.
Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
It's been awhile since I could
Look at myself straight
It's been awhile since I said I'm sorry
It's been awhile since I've seen the way
the candles light your face
But I can still remember
Just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
It's been awhile since I could
Hold my head up high
And It's been awhile since I said I'm sorry...
As I walk along these streets
I see a man that walks alone
Distant echo of people's feet
He has no place to call his own
A shot rings out from a roof overhead
A crackhead asks for change nearby
An old man lies in an alleyway dead
A little girl lost just stands there and cries
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do
A boy just 13 on the corner for sale
Swallows his pride for another hit
Overpopulation there's no room in jail
But most of you don't give a shit
That your daughters are porno stars
And your sons sell death to kids
You're so lost in your little worlds
Your little worlds you'll never fix
You turn away
As I walk along the streets
Soaking up the acid rain
Underneath the taxi cabs
I hear the streets cry out in vain
And you, bring me to my knee, again.
And all the times, that i had to beg you please, in vain.
And all the times, that I've felt insecure, for you.
And I leave my burdens at the door.
but I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you,
see your true colors.
'cause inside you're ugly.
Your ugly like me.
I can see through you
see to the real you.
And all this time
that i felt like this won't end,
was for you.
And I taste
but i could never have,
its from you.
And all this time that i tried,
my intention, Full of pride
And i waste more time than anyone.
I'm on the outside,
I'm lookin' in,
I can see through you,
see your true colors,
'Cause inside your ugly,
your ugly like me
I can see through you
see to the real you.
All the times that I've cried,
all this wasted it's all inside
and i feel all this pain
Stuffed it down it's back again
and i lie here in bed
all alone i can't mend
and i feel tomorrow will be okay
I'm on the Outside
I'm lookin' in,
I can see through you
see your true colors
'Cause inside your ugly
your ugly like me
Ican see through you
see to the real you
I just need this to be all right
I can't feel this another night
I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
Necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
If you need me I'll be here
Half unconscious to escape my fear
My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight I think I am going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in
Another day
Inside my world
I'm married to
you and this road.
A road that never lets
me sleep .
So theres no way to escape the
demons I am forced to keep.
And then I find you here
Through your eyes
Everything's clear
And I'm home
Inside your arms,
But I'm alone for now.
I mean the best
with what I say.
It doesn't always
sound that way
I never learned to
Work things out cause
In my family all we
Ever seem to do is shout
But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home
inside your arms,
but I'm alone for now.
And when I try to sleep-
the drugs I take
are killing me - I think of you
to ease my pain -
but you're so far-
Now it's time to say goodbye.
I love you baby
please don't cry -
'cause then I'll find you here -
Through your eyes everythings clear -
and I'm home inside your arms - but I'm alone for now.
But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home
inside your arms,
but I'm alone for now.
The more you see the more you do
The television's feeding you
With what you want to hear, anger and fear,
Because you suffer
The hate you feel won't go away
You're all programmed to feel this way
To live another day within a world
that loves to suffer
And then I come to find
Everything's okay
Seen this all before
But that was yesterday
Try to walk right through
The messes that I've made
Just let me enjoy
The life here that I made
I tried to give this all to you
Can't take anymore to do
With this it hurts inside, I know why I hide
'Cause I suffer
I tried to keep it all inside
Didn't leave me too much pride
I forced it all down inside forced myself
To make me suffer
And then I come to find
Everything's okay
Seen this all before
But that was yesterday
Try to make it through
The messes that I've made
So I can enjoy
The life here that I made
And then I come to find...
And then I come to find
Everything's okay
Seen this all before
But that was yesterday
Try to walk right through
These messes that I've made
Just try to enjoy
This life here that I have
I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try
to squeeze my eyes shut
so i can't see the pain
in you this pain in me - in me
But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it
I know that I am really not here
to represent what I am not clear
About in my head sometimes
I feel fucked up just like you do - like you do
But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it
Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
It know it
'cause I once felt that way
Nothing I could say
Made it go away
I lived through this
I still feel this
I just live for my tomorrow
Make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away
You mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I had no answers 'cause
I didn't even know you
But these words
They can't replace
The life you...
...the life you waste
How could you paint this picture?
With life as bad as it should seem
That there were no more options for you
I can't explain how I feel
I've been there many times before
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
But these words
They can't replace
The life you...
...the life you waste
Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much?
Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
WELL FUCK THEM!
AND FUCK HER!
AND FUCK HIM!
AND FUCK YOU!
For not having
The strenght in your heart
To pull through!
I've had doubts!
I have failed!
I've fucked up!
I've had plans!
Doesn't mean
I should take
My Life
With my own hands
But these words
They can't replace
The life you...
...the life you waste
But these words
They don't replace
The life you...
THE LIFE YOU WASTE
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